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These are the notes of Rochel Weiman, participant from the Malchus Retreat 12-1-19, in poetry. (Shortened and edited by me)

Rochel is the creator of “Women longing for Geula…” https://www.kavconnect.com/

I thank her for sharing her gifts with me and the world, and all the retreat participants for sharing themselves.  You are truly leaders.

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We are not beautiful for what we are
But for what we are becoming.
We need a womb
And a guardian to keep it safe

The moon’s diminishment
The light will dispel the darkness
We are at the seashore of consciousness
Expanding 

Receptive
To the Torah’s light
Feminine.
Our glow
Grow

We are leaders
Generous with sharing the light
Like climbing a ladder,
Blessed with another rung of light
In abundance;
As we help others
Come into their fullness

A story of the terrible tailor…
Stretch your hand to make it fit… your leg…
“What a good tailor!!” they say
Am I pretty enough?
Am I a mother good enough?

Maybe your not belonging
is the problem with the container

What is my “Ani”?
Ani is one of the Divine Names
What is my essence?
My agent of transformation

Why are women prone to getting all bent up?
We are Bina: we take things in
We absorb
We take our own energy and weave it against ourselves

That’s why we need to support each other
To help the Shechina rise
And say, to one another;
“I wish you can see yourself through MY eyes.”

Chava was not a messianic name
More like the “messy”-anic
We hold her tikkun
In order to get her to where she…
Where we … are going

She was created twice
Onkelus: “chivia”/ snake
Chaya > Chava > Chedva (23 – 19)
She regains what she lost
To Chedva
The 4 that she lost
The journey is the hidden
De-light

Nachash = Moshiach (358)
Lili-t = Layla
Rising above it
Bringing light to dark
That is how we do it
Coming out of the cocoon
Is how the butterfly becomes
Itself

We are afraid to be vulnerable
To share our struggle
Is it safe?
Is it noble?
We are ashamed
Why do I struggle so?
Isolated

And yet together
We are weaving the story
Of femininity

When malchus is low
Torah is low
Shechina is low
That’s when the evil
Can suckle from her

We focus on the tza’ar (pain)
Of the lost Princess
But the one who suffers the most
is the King, Hashem

When we want to transform
We need to know what is possible.

When you look for validation
You have already shrunk.
You no longer exist in a boundless space of truth
But are limited by the dimensions
Of another’s perception.

Inside of you is the whole truth
Stand in your wholeness
Make it somatic knowing
Unshakable
Stand in your crown

If compliments fuel you
Criticism will crush you!!!

Lightning then thunder
Male and female
So much joy in not already being perfect
And evolving

It is all unfolding
Just in time
Perfectly placed in your life
Embrace it!

Malchus is about co-creation
Hashem is perfect;
He has chosen to make Himself vulnerable
So we can grow to meet Him.

There are 7 stages of a woman’s life
Collectively, individually
Hashem gives us real power to make choices
Real power

Take back your power
where you have given it away
I HAVE CO-CREATED THIS
through MY INNER MATRIX OF BELIEFS;
Who or what have I been blaming?
Wow, there’s something I’m doing to create this story

Turn from receiving the situation to acting upon it
Where am I dis-empowered?
Where am I not in truth?
Perceive my essence of love and nurturing
Isolate the faulty code
and re-script

How do we heal the hurting feminine?
It was the pain of rejection;
She was a high woman
We incorporate her essence
She has a place
Right here
Right now

Dishes, homework, supper.
Chava shnia (second)
Chava shelishit (third)
Messianic Woman
Build the vessels and fill them with light
Be in-joy
Expand

Reclaimed yourself in all dimensions
From Daughter
to Partner
to Mashpia

She had a false belief
That Adam had to receive her
She didn’t know
That she’s the influencer

Woman will be the
Crown of her Husband
Stop looking for validation
She thought she was either below or equal
Yet she is
Above

How are you going to show up
WITH YOUR OWN SCRIPT…
Wearing your crown?

It doesn’t matter if I’m praised or criticized
I am stable in my crown
and my light;
This is my identity.

 

Malchus Affimations:
I am worthy.
I am enough.
Honoring healthy boundaries is peaceful.
I don’t need to be afraid of others.
I only fear Hashem.
I am safe, Hashem is with me.
I can put on my crown.
I have permission to have the light contained in my own keylim (vessels)
I am shepherding my own soul.
.

 

Often the thing that I fear becomes active
In the act of my fearing it.

Gevurah is crafting the vessels
My gevurah is not mean but kind.

I can exude the love in my heart

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Extracted from the first series, Chava, at The Nexus School of Transformational Torah for Women.

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